Thursday, February 2, 2012

The Evil of Ambition

The most integral part of one's childhood is invested in gaining education, imbibing values and respecting borders. The same values that you are asked to forget when you enter the big bad world, or the same borders that are violated when asked to 'think outside the box'. Education is a rat race. A child undergoes 14 years of extensive academic training and coaching to get into a good college. After getting into a good college they slog for 3 to 5 years in order to acquire their further education abroad. They believe that a degree abroad in combination with their gleaming transcripts and certifications will fetch them an outstanding post with its own perks. To their disappointment, after several rejections they get a job that has nothing to do with their degree, background or even their IQ level. But they take it and works their way up the ladder, only to stop after a few years and tell themselves, "This isn't what I wanted. This isn't who I am." The next day, they resign.

For the next 4 months they place themselves in the corner of their small room posting a thousand applications every month, and silently observe a gradually eroding bank account. Hard earned pennies go quickly with the bills. Bills - they keep coming. Like a pack of hungry wolves ripping off every inch of integrity that they have in their soul. Leaving the prior job didn't seem to be a good idea anymore. Desperation builds. And it breaks them to accept the next best offer, which again isn't good enough. Work their way up the ladder... to come to the same point and tell themselves, "This isn't what I wanted to be". But now with a family to support and the horrid flashes of an unemployed past, they are left with no courage or determination to start over again.

These are the consequences of Ambition for an average person with above average intelligence in today's world.

I don't wish to be a part of this mass produced (for lack of a better word) "Shit". I wish to have a break, from ALL of this. Go miles away. And do absolutely nothing. I want to see a peaceful sunset. I want to read a book on a sunny day under a shady tree. I want to sleep in the sand watching the starry sky. For once, I want to be closer to god and not to my goal. I want to be a better human and not just a better employee or student. For once, I want to be Myself. I want to cherish myself and love myself as I too am God's creation.